Saturday, November 29, 2008

I know not about the perfection you chase after, but for the beliefs and values I live upon.

The pursuit of victory, perhaps taints the art of go with its ugliness; yet just as perfection, it is but merely a goal and a meaning, the internal conflict it forms resolvable only by ourselves.

Two sides of the coin, to learn to graciously embrace the win/loss is to overcome. Losing hurts, surely, but ample defeat is a necessity to becoming stronger.

Constant pain may turn numbing in our darkest days, but it is the pain and scars in their wake that mark and give purpose to our existence.


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dante direnç said...

I have to agree... winning isn't everything.
I think the process is more important. If you do the same thing all the time and your only goal is to get it done the best way possible, well, that's not a very good goal. If one wants to do something the best way possible, sometimes one has to fail.

Wolf Schröder said...

Excellent post, jingna. I would be delighted to see more posts similar to this one.

You're very intelligent.

JaN said...

Hey I have to say I'm really amazed by your work and how you managed to achieve so much in such a short time! If you don't mind me asking, how did you manage to achieve it?

I do agree with your post.

Boris said...

Well said!

jurffy said...

nicely put. and nice blog. :)

pebble said...

i don't get it~!! haha

Jayme Fosa said...

I can't remember who was supposed to have said it, but I like the sentiment.

Something like..
"Looking back at my life, the best years were those where I was unhappy. I was forced to grow and change and can remember every agonizing moment. I can hardly remember anything at all from all the years when I was happy."

For Igo: It hurts and feels lonely sometimes. That's why it's best to have Go friends. :)

Zhang Jingna said...

The path of a pro is painful. It's not lonely sometimes, it's awfully lonely till the end.

Jayme Fosa said...

so I hear. ^^

But I'd rather believe that if a person chooses to be happy then they will be, and if they choose to be lonely then that can also happen.

But the way you say that makes me wonder if you are a pro..?

Zhang Jingna said...

No, I'm not. I'm not even an amateur dan.

Sometimes I wish I were a pro, then I could have, perhaps, understood and shared that pain with the people I cared.

Jayme Fosa said...

I don't want to be presumptuous about others, but for me, it hurts the same no matter how strong I get.

Which sucks. I thought by now I'd be floating on a zen cloud sipping green tea and feeling at peace with winning and losing and the universe.

Which is to say.. it's not the path, it's the people.

Takemiya Sensei said that he never got upset as a child about losing, because he knew he'd be strong some day. He admits that he was a bit of a strange kid.

How do you feel about go these days?