Tuesday, January 13, 2009

       

tell me how not to be angry.

when i care so much.

when i was hurt along the way, just as much as you.

when i was the only one who ever stood out for you, every time; when none of the people you'd devoted your life to, dared to or bothered.

when it's like watching a kid grow up and play the piano. who's playing the wrong note on the same key over and over, and over.

for a year, for five years, for ten years.


tell me how to ease this anger, knowing that you're in this everlasting circle of getting hurt, when it's stoppable?

it is your kindness, graciousness, to them. but have you considered, ever, just even for the tiniest bit, just how much it hurts me?

do you know, that till this day, i still have nightmares of him hunting us down, trying to kill us; of me watching my flesh being torn from my arm and being unable to turn away?

have you considered my pain, for all the greater good you do? or is it because i am kin, that my pain matters lesser than helping the ones who are not, no matter how they hurt us in return?

10 comments :

Terrence said...

if you have seen my blog, i used to release my anger by writing, it's just like sharing, putting some of your anger on another place. i doesnt necessarily makes you feel happy but it cuts down your anger.

i will be visiting singapore for an internship this march, will you be around then?

Nik said...

When the person sincere in what - it is beautiful... Not always the reason of anger is justified...but sometimes it really has the reasons...and it is bad when it will wound someone...Probably sincerity a key to without disputed dialogue...Such dialogue - it a special skill...Photo - a part of dialogue of the photographer with world around... By means of this world...In the world of a photo there are two types of people - people with the camera and photographers...
For the last - a photo it something greater, than is simple the image...It is the whole world inside of a photo...And this world more "alive" than a surrounding reality...Somewhere on transition between these worlds you now are...And transition depends on your choice in the world of a photo...

Nik Nikopol

joverine said...

ya fuck...
o8 was the year of ragin' anger
disappointment and severe heart break.

if you figure it out let me know

Rob Augustinus said...

Feelings are nature acting out externally. Nurture them before they act out, harmonize your feelings to all things unemotionally, go through them without possessiveness, get involved without being swept away.

People's feelings are easily aroused and hard to control, but anger is the worst. If you can immediately forget your anger when angered and observe what is right and wrong in principle, you can see how external seductions are not worthy of aversion, and be halfway along the way.

"Forget anger and you will be impartial; see what is true and you will follow it"

All the best, hope you feel better soon!

said...

感觉到的更多是一种孤独感
受到伤害后的孤独
其实愤怒的背后往往是恐惧,害怕失去某种东西的恐惧
或许你应该试着改变一下生活,试着去“找寻内心深处的宁静”——即使很难找到,即使这个说法很俗
去生活的绚烂、浮华面的背后看一下

很多时候我们改变不了别人、改变不了现实
那么,宽容一些,对自己好一些,总是好的

……我喝多了,晕了^_^

Zhang Jingna said...

我从来没有想过要改变什么人

能改变的只有我自己而已

可是有时候,真的只是很单纯的希望自己关心的人可以帮帮自己,不要再一次又一次的受到伤害而已。

其实自己很少很少会有脾气,我有时候甚至觉得我对世界和周围的事物关心的太少,所以才会这样。
所以到了自己真正关心的人与事,有时候会忍受不了,不知所措。

said...

被在乎的人伤害确实是件很痛苦的事,即使是不经意间
感觉你的生活,或你的性格比较自我一些,就像你所说“对世界和周围的事物关心的太少”——这并不构成可以伤害你的理由,但这确实是容易受伤的原因之一:就像是一颗鸡蛋,外表坚硬,一旦进入内部,是柔软经不起触碰的

如果是我,会试着去沟通,说出我的想法,如果没有起色——既然在这个循环中痛苦,为什么不试着抽身?即便是短暂的离开,可也能会给自己回寰的余地…
通常来说,这种情况是深不见底的漩涡,有能力时,要早跳出来

去散散心也好,什么都不用想
比如柬埔寨的Sihanouk Ville:)很棒的地方

emplification said...

’。。。世界和周围的事物关心的太少 。。’

这是好事。

不要改变自己,发发闷气也就算了。

过几天,回想起来,其实也没什么大不了的。

marco said...

Sometimes to 'forgive and forget' is what it takes to relieve all your anger...

and We all know that sometimes a problem cannot be forgiven that easily...especially when We feel hurt so much....

and because we know what it feels like, we don't want to hurt others...

We knows that it's a hard way of live...
but we grown up and could become a great person because of what we learn about life in our own ways..
whether it's a good or bad experience we had encounter..

sometimes a problem could makes us grew stronger, that's because we had feel the hurt and pain....
and we had life through it!

I know that you're Strong!!!


Keep it up!! and always Smile :)
I hope U get better soon :)

marco said...

I Just got this words from Gundam 00 :
"The only thing you can change about the past is the way you feel about it in the present"

Try to smile once more :)
I know you can do it.