Friday, September 30, 2011

Keep Going


Saw this really inspiring transcript from an interview with Ira Glass circulating around Facebook today. Felt like I had to share it too.

It's so perfect for me right now because I've been going through such a slump full of self-hate and self-doubt that I've been feeling like this really isn't getting anywhere.

Really just have to just keep going.

Saturday, September 17, 2011

FILLER Magazine: A Beautiful Death









A Beautiful Death
FILLER Magazine, Fall 2011

Photography: Zhang Jingna
Fashion Editor: Tricia Campbell Hall
Art Director: Ryan Johnson
Hair: Adrian Carew/Push
Makeup: Greg B/Push
Manicure: Charisse Feliciano
Model: Heather Peat/Sutherland
Styling Assistant: Roma Singh
Photography Assistants: Jason Mckenzie, Kevin Luc

Just realized that it's been a long long long long time since I'd blogged. Omg my last photo post was NASL finals wtf. To think that 2 MLG's have already passed since then.... ;_;

I want to start off by saying just how much I love this shoot. Omg you have no idea~ 

I was so so super in love with Heather's face, it made me super happy that we got her for the story. And Tricia! I'd seen her work for FILLER so many times in envy of the other photographers who worked with her, words can't express how fortunate I felt to be able to have her styling my story this time~ Ryan was once again amazingly brilliant and put in 200% for all the little (and big) things I demand for (yes I can ask for a lot for my shoots T_T). And I'm super glad that everything came together perfectly as I envisioned it to be at the end of the day thanks to an awesome team of hardworking people. ILU all <3

Moving on~ Just a quick recap of what I've been doing -- 

MLG Anaheim ended July 31st, we had a superbly fun after party (and then an after after party and everyone went home at 4am in the morning). I headed back to Singapore from Aug 4th-8th to appear as a guest judge in The Big Shot Season 2 for two episodes. The production value and quality of work from the photographers have increased so much this time, it was actually pretty impressive. I was a little bit mean though because everyone else was super nice, so sorry T_T. Overall it was very fun and I managed to catch up with a lot of the editors I work with which is something always filled with much joy and laughter~ 

But argh still... long flights are super painful. At least I'm finally close to getting my Krisflyer Gold after a year and will be able to start using the lounges to relax during transits soon... Can you believe that no one ever told me that I just needed just a frequent flyer program per ONE alliance instead of one for every airline this whole time I'd been flying until last year?!?? as;ldkjfg


Anyway, when I returned to L.A. I did a shoot for Evil Geniuses when the BlizzCon StarCraft II Invitational happened. A bit of a random job but I've always enjoyed doing things related to my hobbies and IdrA was really nice in person. :3 

Mid month I flew to Toronto for 2 weeks for some shoots and appointments. This spread for FILLER is one of them and I can't wait to share the other one with Flare which is super pretty too~ 

After Toronto I flew back to the US for MLG Raleigh. It was a bit scary because Hurricane Irene was due to hit the coast that exact weekend. But I guess the gods decided we were to have our StarCraft II tournies in peace so nothing really damaging happened where we were and I'm really grateful for that. 

Came back to L.A. after MLG Raleigh and had been busy catching up with retouching deadlines since.

My team has also just signed some new players and sponsors and it's been crazy trying to juggle the team stuff and photo work but I really like both so just gotta keep trucking along~ 

I'd also just shot a really beautiful cover for Random House, and whilst I don't know when it'd be released I have to say I enjoyed working on it so much that just thinking about it makes me smile. 


So... I keep telling myself I need to update the blog and write about some stuff that's been on my mind but... I take so long to write something even remotely readable, it's just really hard for me. What really made me a bit sad was when I read this, it was then that I realized how tired and dejected I am sometimes these days that I don't even know or want to say anything anymore. 

Maybe I've become a really boring person than before over the years? I don't know D: but anyway here be some behind the scenes photos~